some emo post. for fun.

Hmm. Hmm.
Now I'm in this stupid mood again.
And long time I expressed it here since.
About two months or something.

I watch the rain pour down.
I felt my heart fell down.
I was really tensed, I was really down.
I never wanted to believe but now it was my mistake.

As I listen to the songs.
As I watch my screen.
I couldn't help but think.
I couldn't help but ponder.
I really wish I could fall asleep earlier in the nights.

Nights been long for me.
Nights been stupid for me.
Nights been messed up for me.
Maybe because I just can't fall asleep.

For some reason I guess.
Because they just keep reappearing.
I want to stop.
But it just won't listen to me.

I watch people around me laugh.
And I felt I was the joke.
Maybe I was paranoid.
Maybe I thought too much.

I tried to avoid any eye contact,
In case it opens any conversation like I want that.
I'm sorry Eminem, that was referenced from you.

I watched the cars outside my window as they zoomed passed me.
I couldn't help but think how much behind I'm in.
The world is moving on so fast,
And I dun think I can catch up, oh my arse.

I dunno what goes on in my mind sometimes,
It's just such a mystery,
Such a gift.
Gift from Satan to torture me.
To lead me into my misery.

I tried to pull myself back,
I tried to not lift a fist.
But you just wouldn't leave me alone and continue stepping on my feet.
I'm really sorry but I've to do that in case anybody would want to give me a kick.

When I start relaxing and start getting laid back,
The sound of the speed around the world never failed to get me.
This world just never sleeps and but I need a rest.
Honestly I'm sick of this, tired of this and gonna die of this.

Noises around me seems to irritate me.
But I somehow like to make noise to irritate people.
I wish I could stop.
But I myself couldn't even control myself.
What am I gon' do?
Someone please guide me thru.
I do never want to offend anyone,
But I find people having beefs with me.
I'm sorry for this but you still want to pounce on me.

What the fuck.
What sort of life is this?