another one. also for fun. dun question. just bored.

I feel the world is just too fast for me.
Too fast for me to even try to go grab it.
It felt like only yesterday,
When I was starting to learn talking.

The papers recently pretty much screwed me over.
But I know I don't have anything to put the blame on,
Coz it was me who chose to keep the desktop on.
I chose to not study and slacked my ass.
And now I feel my results is going to be kick ass.

Let's skip that and get back to the non academics.
Coz maybe sometimes I really feel sick of it.
I don't want to go to school.
I really don't want to feel like a goondo.
But what have I to do?
But sit in and complain here.

I just can't figure the system out.
Because it's just so confusing.
Half the syllabus is not gon' be used.
By me in my future life at least.
And yes I know I'm a rebel but what made me this?

I'm sorry for always side tracking,
But it was really a huge bother to me.
I needed someone to talk to,
But nowadays people all seem so busy.

I try to keep myself busy sometimes,
So at least I will just stop thinking of stuffs.
But somehow I never am busy.
Because maybe I do things too fast.

But what the hell is wrong with it?
If I don't go fast I might slip.
But when I'm free and dun wanna do anything,
I will be like now doing this stupid thinking.

I tried to stop myself from posting all these.
But I'm sorry the impulse caught me.
I know my previous post few weeks back said I will no longer be doing these.
But I just can't stop myself from practising.

God please send someone to help me.
Maybe a psychiatrist of something.
Because I feel real tired in me.
I feel real messed up with me.
I feel that my ass is really bouncing of the walls within.

And to all you guys out there,
I am really grateful you will read till this.
Thank You.