Thursday, 16 December 2010
Monday, 8 November 2010
Paper cut on the wrist.
Nah I'm not slitting lol wtf. kay hi, i guess i'm back to blogging? this on off relationship with blogger is sorta...... well, i guess i shall just blog about random stuff that pops up in my head once in a while this time round. lol. so yeah. no one reads this, and i know i'm sorta crazy but if you pop by, yeah. i'm telling you, i'm back to blogging (i hope) well. let's hope this works. ciao mofos.
Monday, 26 July 2010
Shit never stops
So right here right now shit just ended but more shit is coming the way.
I can't handle them the way I used to and I try to run away.
This shouldn't be my case, I'm not gonna get repaid,
Tell me how should I go forth and work in my pace.
Madness is driven in me,
Going like a symphony,
Need my dose of caffe-ine,
Gotta make sure I make it right and quick.
I don't know what's been up with me,
Since the day it happened to me.
Just leave me and let me hurt in my misery,
For you ain't gonna see me cry like this.
I can't handle them the way I used to and I try to run away.
This shouldn't be my case, I'm not gonna get repaid,
Tell me how should I go forth and work in my pace.
Madness is driven in me,
Going like a symphony,
Need my dose of caffe-ine,
Gotta make sure I make it right and quick.
I don't know what's been up with me,
Since the day it happened to me.
Just leave me and let me hurt in my misery,
For you ain't gonna see me cry like this.
Monday, 28 June 2010
Urgh
Now in this state of mind
I just don't feel right
Nothing goes into my mind
And I really don't get what I just typed
I've been putting up with shit,
Fatigue's catching up with me.
I'm tired inside out,
Mentally physically,
Just wanna tear my hair out.
What passed was a holiday,
No it wasn't coz I didn't enjoy and rest a day.
I didn't manage to recharge, recuperate.
How the fuck am I suppose to operate?
Never dealt with such shit before,
Everything just comes to me like never before.
I give a mask like I'm fine,
Deep down inside I know I might die.
I tell myself I'm tough I'm rough,
Maybe I've always been cheating myself.
Gone with the days are those happy moments.
Come now is the days with crazy schedules.
I find myself trapped in a mad rush, a mud rush.
I'm struggling and I keep sinking and I can't get myself on my feet.
I know I gotta pick myself up fast and quick,
But I never be able to do it quick and swift and the demons come and beat me down on my knees.
I need help I can't breath.
Trapped in these reflections all I see is a destructed me.
I find it hard but I know I gotta fight this.
So I put my hands together and wish.
I just don't feel right
Nothing goes into my mind
And I really don't get what I just typed
I've been putting up with shit,
Fatigue's catching up with me.
I'm tired inside out,
Mentally physically,
Just wanna tear my hair out.
What passed was a holiday,
No it wasn't coz I didn't enjoy and rest a day.
I didn't manage to recharge, recuperate.
How the fuck am I suppose to operate?
Never dealt with such shit before,
Everything just comes to me like never before.
I give a mask like I'm fine,
Deep down inside I know I might die.
I tell myself I'm tough I'm rough,
Maybe I've always been cheating myself.
Gone with the days are those happy moments.
Come now is the days with crazy schedules.
I find myself trapped in a mad rush, a mud rush.
I'm struggling and I keep sinking and I can't get myself on my feet.
I know I gotta pick myself up fast and quick,
But I never be able to do it quick and swift and the demons come and beat me down on my knees.
I need help I can't breath.
Trapped in these reflections all I see is a destructed me.
I find it hard but I know I gotta fight this.
So I put my hands together and wish.
Thursday, 10 June 2010
Everyone
Well, what am I doing here? I should be studying/doing my holiday homework because after today, I doubt I will have time for them anymore. Everyone have their own problems in life, that stops them, ultimately, to reach their goal. For me, I guess my biggest problems are laziness and procratination. But everyone have these in them isn't it? I don't get it but somehow or another. I always want but fail to start on something. Sometimes, this just kills me and I feel guilty. The funny thing is that, I never learn. I want that drive back, that drive in me last time, in the past, when I could just finish all my work easily and quickly without having to deal with distractions, e.g. TV, computer and my handphone. I tell myself I'll get off my comp to concentrate on my homework, end up I catch myself surfing on my handphone. Sort of dumb of me actually. I wanna downgrade my phone. Well I guess, that's all my rantings about.
Mount Ophir next week, followed by 3 days rest, and off to OBS. My holiday is screwed.
Mount Ophir next week, followed by 3 days rest, and off to OBS. My holiday is screwed.
Monday, 31 May 2010
Saturday, 15 May 2010
Hmm.
I know no one comes to my blog.
I know you won't see this.
Just to let you know,
I still love you.
I know you won't see this.
Just to let you know,
I still love you.
Wednesday, 3 March 2010
The sudden urge to post.
The first quarter of 2010 is basically almost over and I think I screwed up this part.
Academically, Co-Curricular Activities and Human Relationships.
Just what the heck is wrong with me.
I can't do things right, can't get things clear.
Something's simple and I make it complicated.
A lil fucked up now, a lil sleepy.
A lil tired about life that I lead,
A lil worried about future that looks so dim.
I can't remember things,
I flare up easily.
I never thought things got this bad,
I guess I was never prepared.
I know no one read this crap,
But who gives a heck?
Talk about health and I'm pretty screwed up.
My knee ain't going as it should be.
I sometimes can hardly breath.
My chest feels so tight at times,
I thought I'd really die.
You say I'm ranting, you say I'm whining.
Say all you want coz' that's what I really wanna do.
I flunked my common test and I'm not over it when I should be.
I know I've to pick myself up and try harder, study harder, work harder, learn harder.
But try being in my shoes and see how it feels.
Abrupt ending y'all might say.
What's above is all that I gotta say.
Good bye.
Academically, Co-Curricular Activities and Human Relationships.
Just what the heck is wrong with me.
I can't do things right, can't get things clear.
Something's simple and I make it complicated.
A lil fucked up now, a lil sleepy.
A lil tired about life that I lead,
A lil worried about future that looks so dim.
I can't remember things,
I flare up easily.
I never thought things got this bad,
I guess I was never prepared.
I know no one read this crap,
But who gives a heck?
Talk about health and I'm pretty screwed up.
My knee ain't going as it should be.
I sometimes can hardly breath.
My chest feels so tight at times,
I thought I'd really die.
You say I'm ranting, you say I'm whining.
Say all you want coz' that's what I really wanna do.
I flunked my common test and I'm not over it when I should be.
I know I've to pick myself up and try harder, study harder, work harder, learn harder.
But try being in my shoes and see how it feels.
Abrupt ending y'all might say.
What's above is all that I gotta say.
Good bye.
Saturday, 30 January 2010
Tuesday, 5 January 2010
Wtf?
Just what the fuck is wrong with me now? I used to be undaunted by challenges. Now I'm succumbing to one more subject with stress. Shit. I need to prepare myself better.
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