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Okay. as long as that post? and not emo? fine.

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Happy?

Not happy?

Nevermind.

I'm a very happy man:D
I'm a very happy man:D
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Still not happy?

Okay.

More words are coming up.

I'm a very super happy man:D
I'm a very super happy man:D
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I'm a very super happy man:D
I'm a very super happy man:D
I'm a very super happy man:D

Long enough?

****

I'm fucking sick of constant dissing already
Fuck off.

Something's Wrong

So just what's wrong with me?
What's my condition of my body?
I've never really understand it,
But it just seems so creepy.

I dunno why I'm on this page,
Maybe my montony's eating me up.
I dun wanna blog.
And I'm really not interested in it.
But someway somehow,
I'm here typing the fuck outta me.

If I ever get something better to do.
I think I will quit this once and for good.
I'm running out of words.
And it's getting me crazy.
Ah fuck it.
The end is here.

It's mixed

I dun understand my class well.
Or maybe it's they who dun understand me well.
Hollering about crap people wouldn't want to hear.
Hollering about crap that'll make people so ill.

It's just revolting when you see things as it really is.
The used to have sound of joy and laughter.
Are all seemingly going down the killer.

Why have everyone went there own ways?
Where are the used to have unity?
What is there seperating us from each other?
How can we actually end up like this?

The usual good friends who walked around together,
Now we just do nothing with each other,
Except for maybe dissing each other.

I don't ever think anyone wanted it this way.
I don't ever think anyone did wish for this.
I don't ever think anyone tried to made it this way.
I don't ever think anyone caused all the diss.

Maybe it's just us,
Because we don't click as usual.
And we don't even bother.
But seriously, it's killing me.

I don't wanna give the fuck up.
I don't wanna give the fuck in.
I may someday just throw everything up.
But I don't anyone cares because it's just none of other's business.

fucked up

Why does it seems that things I do the right way,
Seems to me that it always end up on the wrong track?
It gives me such a bad impression that I never wanna do the same again.

They say that if there's a test you should've studied for it.
But fuck it. I swear I did study for my maths test.
And what happened in the end?
The paper was fucked up and killed my confidence.

1+1 is supposed to be 2 right?
But it just seems like.
When I write 2,
The right answer would be 3.

I can't blame anyone and that's what I know.
Maybe I only have myself to blame.
Somethings I dun really know
But I just dun wanna let go.







Okay. I swear I need a retest for maths and DnT. It's totally crap.
Damn. Why is it like this? Issit really the Murphy's law theory?
What can go wrong will go wrong?

hello

okay. i dun have anything to say. post. okay. i posted.

Sigh

Sometimes I just keep thinking.
Sometimes I just can't stop thinking.
I need someone's great enlightening.
Please get me out of my dwelling and I'll be saying words of thanks.

I sometimes really do feel like giving up.
But I sometimes don't know why I should keep up.
I'm seriously in need of someone's help.
To get me started on this big deal.

God damn it.
I feel like I'm hanging on the cliff.
My hands get tired and wants to release.
Please someone get over and help me.
To whack my hands with a rock,
Or at least give me a pull to get me back.

Sigh

Should I just give it up?

I dunno

Been busy and all for the past few days.
Having mental blocks for the past few weeks.
So sorry for the lack of post for the past few days.

Didn't have the inspiration to come up with a rhyme or two,
So i'm just gon' get down to some point of a low grade shit.
Or maybe something like it.

Just been thinking recently.
So much so for the distractions.
I'll need some help to get me to focus so things that need my attention will certainly be there with the biggest attraction.

I would give you the attitude that I've hidden,
If you ever get me bitten.
I will kick your ass.
If you ever come and get mine kicked.

People. Don't fuck with me.
And I will certainly leave you alone.

Oh hello?

Fuck. This shit is boring.
How can i ever stop my boredom.
As in stop let my self get more freedom.

Heck. I'm like a eagle kept in a room.
I waiting for the door to open.
So I can then finally fly on the random.

For once I feel so tied down.
I feel tired and tries to back down.
But I know I've to perservere and not duck down.

Number 136

He sees the chance and he's not letting up.
He'll never ever again let the chance run.
He needs strength, support and luck.
To capture everything that's useful for him in the long run.

But God knows if he can do it.
For any mistake is gon' be costly.
He got no room for that shit.
If he wants to survive this.

He gon' push all the way.
And try to do what's best.
Never giving up nor reversing.
And that's the spirit living in him.

Oh hello.

Sup people. This gon' be my 135th post.
It's been thru coldhater.bs/ in-hot-water.bs/ drink-whiskey.bs.
And now. it's the same damn fuck the planet.

God damn it. I'm suddenly feeling so high.
Most importantly, I dun even know why.

Someone help me please.
Help me from my state.
Before I start dancing.
Yeah. Dancing out in the streets.

I feel as though I just took two dose of ecstacy.
And I'm high like fuck.
I just feel like screaming my head and whack some butt.

God damn. For those who wants to help but can't.
Sorry but thanks.
For you know that I'm just kidding!

WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Damn. I gon' kill you.

God damn it. This is just simply fucked up.
Why am I always placed in front?
Like what the fuck.

Am I that bloody short?
Can you explain why?
Why do people shorter than me,
GET TO SIT BEHIND ME AND I'M ALWAYS STUCK IN FRONT?!

FUCK THIS ARRANGEMENT!
I'M BLOODY UNHAPPY!
I DUN EVEN CARE IF THIS WORDS DO RHYME ANYMORE
COZ IN MY HEART, ALL I KNOW IS THAT.
I HATE YOU.

GOD DAMN IT. I'M SO PISSED THAT I DUNNO
I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY. BUT THSI NARROWED MY VOCABULARY
DOWN TO TWO WORDS. AND THAT IS
FUCK YOU!

I just don't understand.

Why have things gotten to what it is now?
Why didn't you stop when I told you to.
Why did you just keep carrying on?
And maybe that's because you want to see me pissed off.

From now one, I have resoluted.
I will never give a fuck no more.
To whatever shit you have to blabber about.
Getting angry will only harm my own body.
I rather treat you as some one.
Non existent, and live my own life.

But. I never want things to turn out this way.
We look into the face no more,
And I'll just play Satan in your activities.
All we can see in each other is hate,
And I really hate it this way.

I know you not gon' see it,
But this is just my venting.
No matter what, I will not give in.

Since I've set out this demonic path,
I will never want to give up.
You want me to apologise,
You can wait for your life.

I'm not gonna let this rest easy
Like I used to just let go previously.
Don't you worry. I swear.
You gonna see the worst of me.

ARGH!

I never want to be this way,
But the people keep getting in my way.
I may turn into Satan someday,
When-this is what we can't say.

I act like I've no problem in life,
But my pressure keeps piling,
The teachers' expectations keep rising.

I can't keep my head straight or right,
And I can no more differentiate between right or wrong.
I want to move on,
But there're bound to be obstacles.
I try to get them away,
But they just don't budge but stay.

Sometimes I just wondered what the fuck is wrong with me.
Don't worry it'll get over someday.
I try to look at my front,
But the sides are my distractions.

I know I can't stay.
I know I can't remain the same.
But I certainly need time to advance.
I promise that when I see a chance,
Imma grab it and not let down.

Yeah. I'm not gonna let myself down.

God damn it.

The bomb has went off.
My temper is on and off.
I can't predict what I'm capable of.

Everything seems so fucked up.
Everything seems to be going against me.
Or issit me going against the flow?

Iono. But I know a thing or so.
That I've blown and can't put up with the nonsense no more.

Fuck it. Why am I hollering about all this shit here,
In this fucked up mood that I have.
On this earth I hardly find any peace,
All I hear is nonsense.

So people like fucking me up and think it's fun.
Fuck you cats. Fuck with me one more time.
And Imma take your bloody life.
I swear I'm not letting things rest as easy
As I used to handle stuffs in the past.

random-ness

Sometimes I feel like shit.
Sometimes I act like dick.
This very moment, I think.
Everyone's like that ain't it?

But I think again.
Why can everyone else seem to be happy
For 24/7
But for me, I fuck up every now and then.

No one knows what'll happen the next minute,
Let alone the next day.
I try to live every other day.
With my head lifted and walk with my back straight.

For now I would like to quote.
Coz I think the following quote is too meaningful.
'I will not fall
I will stand tall
Feels like no one can beat me'
Source: Till I Collapse - Eminem.

Random

Very soon I'm bout to blow.
Soon in the future is what that'll show.

I might seem like a nobody,
I may seem like a gay.
But once I blow, I can't phantom how'll it be.

I try hard to conceal.
Try hard to hide.
But no matter how hard i try,
My efforts a futile.

I try to be what I really am,
But it's never seem to work.
For I'm always putting on a mask,
To hide the sore in me.

You guys may be at advantage,
But Imma change that to disadvantage.
I'm be a demon if I like.
Be a angel is I feel like.

Because I just don't care what you like.

???

Sometimes I feel like a lunatic,
Doing things kinds of crazy shit.
I feel weak deep down there,
But still wants to hang on there.

I'm letting this remind myself
That no matter how bad I fall,
It ain't gonna matter for I'm not gonna moan.

If I ever give up,
There would be only 2 chances.
One is when I'm lying in my deathbed,
Two is when I'm lying on my bed.

Tireless I may seem to be,
Tired is the feeling inside me.
I gather all the energy I have, and do what's best for me.

No matter the outcome,
I ain't gonna be,
Happy angry or whatever you name it.

I'll listen to my body.
And fall back when it tells me.

Oh

Btw, i did that for some venting of anger.