Damn it.

As the rain pounded,
My thoughts bewildered.
Why is it like this,
What happened to that?

I went into the shower,
Wet myself with some water,
Thinking that I may think better.
But it didn't work,
Just making me more tired.

I heard the birds chirping, the sound of joy.
I heard the music playing, the sound of sadness.
What really lies beneath me,
I guess it's not nice to unleash.

See, I wanted to be a joyous person,
But situation became worse.
I had to do things I hate,
I turned into Satan.

Karma is declining,
And I know a catastrophe for me's coming.
I'm prepared for the worse,
Even if it means dying.

Only will death bring me down that's what I said.
So I think i will not let other things to make me collapse.
I'm not a weakling and I will not want to swear.
So I'm trying hard as I could to make do without those words.

God. Let me know if I'm dying as I would want to thank.
Locate all those who made my life worth living,
And say a word of thanks.

Oh by the way,

I JUST DON'T GIVE A FUCK

Fuck it. I'm back.

Okay people. I'm back blogging. Life's fucking boring for me. School's fucked up as usual. Fucked up teachers with their shit ass faces. Damn. So you think my handwritting messy huh? Wants me to copy reader's digest huh? Come on man. Wake up. What the fuck is wrong with you? I dare you to go out on the streets and do a survey if my handwritting's untidy. Fuck. Bitch. My homies understand my handwritting. Everyone does. It's the problem in your eyes. You hoe. I'm fucked up and pissed off. Yeah. So? Even if some people reads this and whatever shit I'm in trouble. I don't give a god damn fuck yo. My handwritting not hieroglyphic, it's the problem in you. I know my subliminal thoughts sometimes can be sporadic and whatsoever, getting people pissed with me. But hey. WHO ON EARTH GIVES A GOD DAMN FUCK ABOUT IT?! TELL ME! FUCK YOU! TELL ME! I dunno why I'm doing this also, wasting my god damn time, blabbering all this shit out of me, yeah. I have an attitude problem. But so what. Come get me. I dun care. Fuck it. I'm outta here.

another post.

okay. this a new post. so. i updated! :D

Going off.

Guys. I'll not be updating forthe next 8 days+ coz I will be overseas. I'll update ASAP when I return to Singapore. Please leave your tags down so I'll be motivated to update. Thanks:D

I'm sadistic. So?!

He did not want the dead body to rest in peace. Before leaving it, he did something to it.

He opened up the eyes. Slowly, he hammered 3 9inch nails into each eyes. Good thing the person died. The murderer is not that bad afterall. He then used a hook and went thru the skin on the forehead, and skinned that part of the head. He opened the skull and leaving the brains inside, he smashed it and turned it into jelly.

He opened up the body. He poked holes in his stomach that ranged from 3mm in diameter to 21cm in diameter. He then slowly cut the heart open and sliced it. He threw the sliced heart into the stomach and leaving the body and surroundings in still a bloody state. He pinned the penis to the his groin and stuck the testicles to the nails that were hammered into the eyeballs.

He cut of every finger and toe off putting them in the mouth. He stuffed two of the front teeth into the nostrils. He then walked of calmly and as though nothing happened.

PhotoFunia!!!!!!!!!!!

I dunno about this..


I'm a CRIMINAL!




Benjamin Franklin is out!
Kwa Xin An is the new face! :D


I UPDATED!

Another random post.

Alice was lying in bed, alone at home, in subconciousness. She was going to fall asleep when just at the strike of 12, she felt that she was being watched. She tried hard not to be bothered by the feeling but it was too strong. She could not fall asleep and she tried to close. A force seems to be pushing her eyes wide open and she gave up.

She sat up in bed for a moment. She then went to the toilet. She splashed the icy cold water on her face for a couple of times, movng out to the kitchen, closing the window and locking it up. As she was returning to her room, she heard footsteps. She was very sure that those footsteps was not from her. She was freaked out. Then she heard a thud.

She turned around and saw a huge figure. She couldn't see clearly due to the black out an everything was pitch black. The figure then started to push Alice to her room. She resisted and tried to run. She quickly ran with a might around the house and ended up in the garage.

The figure was following her. And soon, the figure caught up with her. He started to move towards Alice, step by step, breathe by breathe. Alice retreated according to the footsteps of the figure. She was cornered. She was trapped and behind her was her station wagon.

She stopped and closed her eyes. She felt the hand of the figure running over her body. Her clothes were ripped off and she let off screams from her chest. She tried to fight off the figure but he was too strong for her. Then the station wagon was forced open and Alice was raped in it. She soon lost conciousness and was then drove, still in the station wagon, to the nearby lake.

The mysterious person, also known as the figure had his mask on and he, being so strong, pushed the wagon, with Alice in it, into the lake and watched it sank. He then walked off slowly, back to the garage and burnt down Alice's house.

The truth never came to light and no one ever know about this mysterious guy. Alice's case remained a mystery and only the person knows that he done it.

This is random.

The boys went underground, through a drain, hoping to find more clues on the main cause of the dead turning into zombies. They landed with a thud and green radio active waste started to drip from the pipes above them. Carefully, they collected the waste and brought it back to lab.

As they reached the lab, they tested it on a rat. They killed it and released the the waste into the enclosed cage.

'What the fuck are you trying to do?!' Dr. Pulma, a professor at the school sreamed. They droped the waste in fear. Suddenly, the rat leaped up. The rat leaped on Dr. Pulma. 'Fuck!' Screamed Kyle. Dr. Pulma soon fainted and he was infected. The boys prepared their weapons and also killed the rat. For once, they thought that they were safe.

Dr. Pulma came to a sudden wake and grabbed the unsuspecting Jimmy on the neck, bit him on the eyes and the other 3 just freaked out. they quickly ran off and tried to open the only door. The door was locked by them as they wanted the experiment to be confidential. They lost the key and the only way to get out, was to destroy the knob. They did that and millions of zombies stood in front of dead.

They were totally surrounded and they just stood and waited to get killed and become one of them.

Nice movie!

I finished 8 Mile. 2002 movie. Starring Eminem and D-12(i think). Anyway, it's a god damn fucking bloody nice movie. Freestyle raps are cool. Rap battles are also very cool.

I have nothing else to say. I know this is a fucking short post. Very sorry. SHall update more next time. Provided there are some fucking things which is worthy enough to update about.

I hate sleepless nights.

Yesterday was one sleepless night for me. I had a headache around 10. Wanting to go to sleep, but I just can't. I dunno if it's insomnia. Anyway. I had a hard time. I sat on the bed, no one to talk to. Tried putting myself to sleep, but as I close my eyes, I just begin thinking. I dunno why. Then I wanted to do some holiday assignment. But my brain didn't work. I went WTF is wrong with me? I couldn't online for that my parents will know and I will get a scolding from them due to the fact that I onlined in the day for god knows how many hours. I wandered around like a zombie with no aim in mind, it's purely fucked up.. So I began taking out my foolscap and came out with the 15 statements from XinAn.

1) Studying is just to waste time.

2)Going to classes is a waste of energy.

3) Schools are a waste or resources.

4) Teachers are redundant.

5)Calculators are a waste of electricity.

6) Algebra can be sent to the Institute of Mental Health.

7)Chinese is nonsense.

8)The heat during practical Home Econs lessons is the cause of global warming.

9)Literature is the main course of death among dead students.

10) Geography should be studied by aliens.

11)Physics formulae are crap.

12) Bio is for the dead.

13) Reading materials and exam papers is a waste of trees.

14) Money is the key essential to survive.

15) Gaming is essential to good brains and high IQ levels.

Also, I came up with a question. If you people have an answer to it please leave a tag.

What are 'Slow Down' Road signs for when vehicles at high speed are just going to zoom past without even noticing the sign?

SHUT THAT BLOODY FUCKING HELLISH SICK MOUTH

OF YOURS YOU MOTHER FUCKING
BLOODY HELL SON OF A BITCH!

I did that for fun

SHUT THE FUCK UP! I dunno what's wrong with me. Far too many things happened over the last few weeks. I need time to quiet down, get some peace and maybe, even some rest. Because of this, I am getting real bored. HAHA. Bought a PSP. Sorry. I laughed only for a second. Anyway, I dunno what the on earth happened to me. See the time? 5+ in the morning. YES! 5 am. Rub your eyes look at it again. I woke up today. around 5 and thought that there was school today when it was a holiday in fact. After slacking in bed for a moment, i then realise that my holidays had started. Ah. God damn it. This is fucking me up. I have no wish to continue already.

Shitty week.

Crap. I dun even know what I feel inside. Nevermind. Just know that this week, post exam week, seriously is hell for me. I am bored to tears. Ah. Yesterday went to Vivocity in the morning with the school for some shit ass crap fucking NE trail shit that wasted fucking lots of time. Damn it. I should've ponned school that day. Nevermind. What's done cannot be undone. I'm sick of tired of this life I'm leading. This fucked up world had me gone poped. I am outta here.

God Damn It.

I dunno why i am posting now, in this fucked up mood. This EOY is fucking me up. I judt dun get it. What's this Singapore government policy all about? Studying things like geog and bio which we will not need when we grow up and go into the new stages of our lives. I dunno why we waste so much time and energy on these god damn so fucking difficult to study topics. it's not as if i am growing up to be a geologists doctor whatsoever. I have seriously 0 interest in these fucked up topics. sometimes i really dun feel like going to school. So many fucked up faces i see in school. Teachers students. whatever. Anyway, EOY ended. This fucking shit. Wasted my time, although i didn't study much, time wasted when i studied accumulated to more than 24 hours which is more than day. Nevermind forget about science. forget about chinese. forget about geography. i dunno why i am made to study these subjects i have no interest over. i seriously MOE changes policy. Ah crap. Why am i digressing? Ah shit. I shall stop diss-ing the Singapore MOE.

Anyway. I had a fucked up day today. That bloody hell science paper. i screwed up. I seriously dunno why, but i think the whole class screwed up. Ah. Physics. no wish to talk about it. seriously. i just feel like screaming, but can't. I would be causing a nuisance.

After the paper, played some soccer. Match over and when home. When i got online i chatted with people and i started to smash my keyboard as a form of stress relief. I dunno why. I always feel better after listening to eminem's song and also sometimes singing them out loud. Ah. I am at a serious loss of words. Fucked up. Hear my silent screams. Anyway, got to go. Try to get more ppl to my blog please. i thank you. Coz if no one gonna come, i would have no mood to update.


p/s sorry for all the vulgarities in this fucked up post.

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Just being random.

A bit tired. But shiok.

LOL. Today was er... Dunno how to say. I slept at 1am last night, and woke up 5.30am today. Then go school. Sian la. At school boring like dunno what. Rain rain rain. Cannot play street soccer. No street soccer= more tiredness. I dunno why. But I have found out that if i play street soccer, i will be more energetic during class. Okay. Nevermind. Then went home. Went home with shaun. Saw the bus 985. We missed it, so nevermind. Then we wanted to go take 187 one.. then jia wei walking behind us. We talk talk talk. then we agreed to walk home! BPGHS. Teck Whye Crescent to Bukit Batok St. 34 and with heavy bags. COOL! And now I am here blogging.

Post number 108.

Ouch. I injured my knee cap. Fell down when play street soccer, and dragged against the floor. Blood came out. Anyway. Was fun! zZz. Stupid. I am starting to hate some of my teachers. Damn it. Ms Goh. Yucks. Dun like her. Too bossy for my sake. And the face also a bit kiam pa. Ms Zizi. Too irresponsible from my point of view. Dunno how she teach. Papers come back only with a seen. Not ticks or crosses. MCs lots of times. Ms Suzanna Lee. Or whatever you spell it as. That only music teacher fomr my school. Damn it. She is bossy. Worse than Ms Goh. Anyway, come on. Even if they read this, it's not my business. Sue me for defamation. You ain't a big shot. There's freedom of speech on this world. I can say whatever I wish. Fuck fuck fuck. Fuck fuck fuck. Hating the workload. Being super busy lazy nowadays.

I have thought about. It's not that I am trying to act cheem or what. But I am just fucked up with my life. I dun wanna be that loser. I dun want to be controlled by my surroundings. I wanna get out of my life. Live a good life. People tends to piss me off easily. I dunno why. Maybe my temper tank says 0. I dunno what's wrong. And I just dun give a fuck nowadays. This is damn bloody boring. Day in day out, school starts school ends. Nothing else. Then I stay home and rot with papers. If you are gonna say something that you know is obviously gonna piss me off, think again. Maybe you should just shut the fuck up. I dunno what I am capable of when I am fired up.

If you are gonna comment on this post, please. Dun comment on my personality. This is the way I am. I dun need you to tell me.

Quotes. All from Enimem's Songs.

I don't owe you a mo-therfuck-in thingI'm not Mr. N'Sync, I'm not what your friends think I'm not Mr. Friendly, I can be a prick If you tempt me my tank is on empty (is on empty).. No patience is in me and if you offend me I'm liftin you 10 feet (liftin you 10 feet).. in the air I don't care who is there and who saw me destroy you Go call you a lawyer, file you a lawsuit I'll smile in the courtroom and buy you a wardrobe I'm tired of arguin' (of arguin').. I don't mean to be mean but that's all I can be is just me And I am, whatever you say I am If I wasn't, then why would I say I am? Points a finger at me (finger at me).. So I point one back at 'em, but not the index or pinkie Or the ring or the thumb, it's the one you put up When you don't give a fuck, when you won't just put up. But I'm glad cause they feed me the fuel that I need for the fire To burn and it's burnin and I have returned. The why, the who what when, the where, and the how 'til I'm grabbin my hair and I'm tearin it out Cause they drivin me crazy (drivin me crazy).. I can't take it.

-The Way I Am


These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it Put it to my brain and scream "god Shady" and pop it The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes

-When I'm Gone


But somehow it seems, the harder that I try to do that The more it backfires on me. Everything always happen for a reason I guess it was never meant to be But it's just something We have no control over And that's what destiny is. Now I'm sittin' in this empty house, Just reminiscing. And if you ask me to, gonna buy you a mocking bird I'ma give you the world, I'ma buy a diamond ring for you, I'ma sing for you, I'll do anything for you to see you smile And if that Mocking Bird don't sing and that ring don't shine I'ma break that birdie's neck, I'll go back to the jeweler Who sold it to ya And make him eat every carat

-Mockingbird

See. He raps about his life. Not for cash. And is rapping is very powerful. COOL!

POST

Okay. So many people tell me update. Fine I will. but tell more ppl to visit. If not no point for me posting, Haha. The days are fine. Holidays. Full of homeworks. And i haven't started. Good luck to me. I am just rotting in front of the comp. happy? damn it. miss soccer. I wanna play street soccer. dying to. But the damned weather restrained my temptation. lol. Fine.


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Okay. My life bores me. Can? Nothing interesting happened. And i am bored.




I have updated. happy?

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