Thank you.

This post is done while I'm still halfway through my 剪报. I was really sick of it and chanced upon Kang Jie's blog with a whole chunk of 'Thank You' and so I got suddenly motivated to start this post.

Well, so I must say, 2009 went pretty fast, faster than previous years. Things are sorta a lil too fast for me to catch and I guess I really regret procrastinating stuffs that led me to the current state of my studies. I guess I haven't been studying well this year and I'm perhaps having problems coping, but still, I wanna try to hold on and pull through. Guess I should start working hard now. There's really a whole list of people I wanna thank and I think if i'm going to list them all out, this post would never be finished. So maybe I would just thank the few more important people be it if they will be reading this or not.

So here goes:

To Mum and Dad. I know I haven't been really obedient and I'm a badass son for the past few years ever since I entered my teenage years. You guys put up so much with me and disciplined me so much. I admit I was in the wrong sometimes and thank you for pointing out my mistakes and for the disciplinary actions taken out against me but sometimes I really do feel wrong. I don't want to continue here as this is a thank you post but not a complain letter. I know you will not be reading this but still, thank you so much.

To Sisters. Yeah. The two of you probably won't know about my blog also but who cares. Thank you so much for helping me through times that I was fucked up and stuff and also thank you for the fights that kept me entertained when I was bored. I know this sounds sadistic but it's true(:

To the teachers. Thank you so much for guiding me through my studies, clearing my doubts at times, but frankly, sometimes I sorta hate you guys for throwing bullshit at us. I know you all will not be reading this too but still, thanks for all the work, scoldings and punishments that made us really grew up.

To Cedric. I know you'll also not be reading this, most probably I guess, but thanks so much for the times you had put up with me when I was down and pissed and especially when I picked fights with you. Looking back, those were just a whole lot of childish and immature acts that really shouldn't have happened and I shouldn't have experimented. Thank you so much for trying to cheer me up when I was down, giving me advice when I was lost and also the time that you spent hanging out with me. I miss those times when CCA stood down and we would go to Lot One almost every other day after school for lunch. I miss those ice fights and really cool talks that we had. Thank you so much for those.

To Celeste. My table partner for half a year I guess. Well, a pretty funny and crappy time for that half year. Lots of things happened I guess and thanks for putting up with me at times when I was down and I would grumble/complain. You're a good friend for the past 1 year plus which I think would be hitting 2. Thanks for all the chats we had, be it on msn, SMS or on the phone late at night. Those times would never be forgotten I guess.

To Weiixen. My table partner for the other half of the year. YOU ARE A JOKER. A big one. Your crazy/funny antics really is very funny. I know you're also probably not reading this too. But you're really one big smartass. Thanks so much for helping with the work I don't know how to do and also guiding me through things I wasn't sure of. And most importantly, thank you so much for keeping me awake with your super lame and cold jokes that made me laugh so hard and giggle. But somehow, our seats wasn't changed. Cool times eh? Thank you(:

To the friends I made this year. Yeah. Quite a lot to list down for I don't know what reason. Haha. Thanks so much for being my new friend(: Talking to me. Chatting, keeping me entertained and perhaps sharing those uber cool videos on youtubes and jokes(: Thanks so much.

To the everyone else. Thank you for walking with me if you had, for every single little things that we had done together. Thank you.

To everyone who trusted me. I thank you sincerely, from the bottom of my heart. Thanks for putting your trust on me. I know it's difficult to trust people so thank you so much. Thanks.

To myself. Yeah. I think I gotta thank myself too. Thank you for growing up and learning new things. Thank you for all the things I bought for myself. Thanks so much. And good job for handling all the bullshit thrown to me, for enduring with things that I used to not be able to put up with. Thanks.

Yeah. I guess that's about it. Well, I'm sorry if your name is not specifically mentioned here but there's really too much. I'm sorry and thank you. Good luck for the year ahead and stay in the pink of health, people(: Merry Christmas and a very early Happy New Year. :D

I feel like diss-ing someone. I don't know who. -.-

This post gon' be random,
For I not know who the target is,
For I not know how I wanna go about this diss.


This is for no-
One, just guns pointing anyone.
No wait I just thought of someone.

Frankly I tell now I'm stressed.
I'm pissed, I feel my fist.
I've had enough of this.

Why you wanna live with all those avoidance.
I see them all as hypocrisy.
Why you make me tell someone something-
Which never ever mattered much to me?
Why you make me feel so caught up between?
Don't you have a lil' bit of sympathy?
Why is it always me that have to clear all this shit?
Is it you making use of me?
How did I succeed in putting up with all these?
I don't know how to handle things-
Thinks people all around,
Go all around making me like a badass all time round.
And when I try to empty my heart out here, I hear voices saying that I'm loud-
Pow. Knock out. There goes Xin An down and out. Never heard, seen, felt. Coz someone just squeezed his fucking balls out.

Super Bored.

So. Avatar today. Not a bad movie. Shan't go into details. Crapped a lot. Anyway, was damn super bored until cannot bored on the MRT back. So started to look at the notices and I took three and below I'm going to tell you why.1)

How do we alight when we have to keep clear of the doors??

2)

We can't put our hand on the sliding door. When the door is sliding, how can we rest our hands on it? The door would just slide off.

3)

Tell me what the train runs on.

Okay. I know I'm SUPER but hey. I WAS SUPER BORED AND NOTHING BETTER TO DO KAY?!

Done posting. Bye.

For anyone out there.

I've fallen at this point whereby,
I, just fill I'm in a dark pit, total bullshit, nothing that really can explain what this it.
My mind's twirling, and I can't seem to get them in line no more.
I told myself to let go but why I feel things became so close.
I put myself on hold, told myself I ain't pro but I still have to learn how to let things roll.

I lost my mind now I feel I'm in the sky, no not high just the feeling I might die.
I don't know why and I will not cry, because I feel like downing Cyanide.
I've to pull, I cannot stop. I don't have time to think, I have to get everything up quick.
I feel like a prick now because I can't tell all these shit.

Give me a break. I'm choking because I'm hanging.

Homework

English: Compo(going to do now), The Baking Desert(Do tomorrow)
Math: Heymath test, Textbook Exercise
Chinese: 4jian baos and 1 book gan xiang (totally haven't touch the book)

Sigh

I was watching Tom and Jerry when I realized how good it is to be young and innocent as a kid, able to laugh at anything, including those stupidest every jokes..

No more.

Perhaps from now on, I'll only be posting when I'm feeling out and down, high and dry. So better hope I won't update often. But please tag more. When you can't reach me, the box there is for a reason.