The Hate Mail

Well here comes revolution
When I start to go against the constitution
And now I am so pissed I feel like kicking some people into prostitution.

There are whores around acting like they control the whole
What they don't see is what goes on because they don't look into the hole
All they see is just the whole
And this is making me tear up all big and small fucking holes.

What I have now seen
Have slowly make me become mean
I don't ever want to give anymore hint
Because you've all turn me into this me.

You gonna find this inhumane me
Tearing up upon me through these fucking skins
And now the small little decent me
Is just what you gonna miss
Because it is hiden beneath all the sins
And yes all the sins that I may soon commit.

I might be on a spree to go around rampaging
When people try to throw fucked up shit at me
I stop getting pissed
Instead I keep all up and wait for my chance to get crazy
Because on that day these fuckers gonna know what revolution means.

Time shall reveal everything
So please be patient and wait for the revelation.

Beautiful - Eminem

I'm just so fuckin' depressed
I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick that mic back up
I don't know how or, why or when,I ended up in this position
I'm inI starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit
Or come to grips, with the fact that
I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet
I know some shits so hard to swallow
And I just can't sit back and wallowIn my own sorrow
But I know one fact
I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow
I'll be one tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles

Chorus

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what It'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each others eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room
Just as soon as I walk inIt's like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that...I'm not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don't need no fucking man servant
Tryna follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain't even funny like
Haa! Marshall, you're so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't have to trade our shoes
And you don't have to walk no thousand miles

Chorus

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what It'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each others eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you so
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands we're dealt
We gotta take these cards ourselves
And flip them, don't expect no help
Now I could have either just
Sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
But take this situation in which I'm placed in
And get up and get my ownI was never the type of kid
To wait by the door and pack his bags
Or sat on the porch and hoped and pray
For a dad to show up who never did
I just wanted to fit inIn every single place
Every school I wentI dreamed of being that cool kid
Even if it meant acting stupid
Aunt Edna always told me
Keep making that face it'll stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there
Holding my tongue trying to talk like this
Till I stuck my tongue on that frozen stop sign poll at 8 years old
I learned my lesson then cause I wasn't tryin to impress my friends no more
But I already told you my whole life story
Not just based on my description
Cause where you see it from where you're sitting
Is probably 110% different
I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each others shoes, at least
What size you where?
I wear tens
Let's see if you can fit your feet

Chorus

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what It'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each others eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you so
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you

Maybe what you're seeing is a phantom me.

I sit on my porch and think,
Thinking about how I used to be.
I can never learn from my mistakes I guess,
Or maybe I do sometimes but things ain't right this time.

Maybe I was born a rebel,
Maybe that's what I really am.
I dun like people telling me what to do and controlling me like a puppet,
Because I only wish for a life by my own.
A pull at times are appreciated but not when people just keep screwing with you.

Hard cold facts came down hard,
And I mean hard enough to smash you apart.

Now I'm frustrated and shit,
My temper is getting the better of me.
I feel it's impossible for me to talk to anyone with peace now.
Because I lack of peace myself now,
And I'm really so damn pissed.

I tell myself to study,
And I end up playing.
I can't see myself studying,
Because I myself am not a motivational thing.

I try to find joy today in doing things.
But things just don't go well today for me.
Maybe declination and depressing times are setting in,
I guess I have no choice but to let it be.

I am still bored.

As I lay back and rest,
I feel the weight get heavier on my chest.
I tried to do my very best,
And now I feel like thrash.

Reason why I tried to be high as I can,
Is coz the feeling is like drugs that let me feel best.

I don't wanna carry on no more because I think I'm not in the mood to.
Anyways I think I shall leave everything to end here and I officially take my leave.
And maybe I will never be what I was in the past coz I changed my dream.

Really bored the fuck out.

I tried to say goodbye,
But I got no reply.
I wonder if one day I die,
Who will really cry.

Now that I had a stitch,
Due to my heart that had a glitch,
I got myself a brand new creed,
That I never get knocked down over by another bitch.

Because now I have realised that much,
What he said about sluts,
Now the words are starting to act up.

I never believed those statements,
But I guess now I've no choice but to.
Though I know I still can't get over you.

070809

Too many things happened,
Too little that I remembered.
I really forgot. And I dunno if I want to recall.
Argh. I dunno what's with me now.